Mundaneness of life coming to end.

Doesn’t the daily routines make you feel like life is so mundane? Well I mean, I enjoy the mundaneness of the sun shining across my face when i wake up or my messy bed all over the place or me having a cup of coffee just reading a newspaper that i can actually access ( everything seems to have subscriptions these days). It's a daily routine. You get up, work, eat, sleep and at times get sick. Lately, i felt that we have been living inside the 4 walls more than we have stayed out. I am not sure if you feel the same way. However, this mundaneness is about to end. FINALLY as some people may think. Yes, of course i say finally too but i don’t just feel ready to give up this comfort zone of staying inside the 4 walls and not having to socialise.

I know socialising gets hard especially if you are someone like me who needs to put that extra effort. I DO TRY. Well, as life is going back to normal. You heard it. I am quite nervous to be honest. I see myself as a very hardworking being but how do i socialise at the workplace? I go through various questions in my head such as after returning to work, there wont be a balance of work and you. Its only work. You have to travel, and travelling actually takes a long time and is costly if you live in a city like London. Also, getting sick or ill is so hard. Anything gets classified as Corona and you get paranoid even more.

I hope it goes okay I say to myself everyday. I know if this is your first ever job after graduating, you must be feeling the same way. I can imagine. I have loved working and also my workplace which has the most supportive and encouraging team, it has been one of the best things that i have been blessed with. However, sometimes i find it extremely difficult to fit in. I am not sure if this is the side effect of being within the 4 walls for all of last 2 years.

Some of the things i have done to reduce the anxiousness of the world going back to normal.

1. I have imagined going abroad to learn and absorb the cultures and meet the people from different countries/cities. This is one of the exciting factors that i have been looking forward to. Floating through the canals in Amsterdam, or Admiring Venice or just existing with a tub of ice-cream in the middle of nowhere and listening to the life experiences shared by someone.
2. Meeting all your relatives, and friends that live abroad. This will come in easy. I have not met my grandma in nearly 4 years and that is one of the hardest things. I would love to fly over and meet her.
3. I am actually creating positive scenarios of work, which will help me socialise and enjoy the work life.
4. I am looking at a brighter side about travelling to work, it will give me enough time to invest in reading a book which I have been lacking crazily lately.
5. I have not been someone who drinks often and everytime someone asks I feel bad for saying NO. It has been a cycle. Someone asks me, I say no. Its an immediate response. I believe in the socialising without the alcohol.

It has actually been a crazy journey. 1.5 years of University was done all online. Graduation was done online and now working remote. All due to COVID. I believe all of these has acted on making a rather socially awkward person more nervous about the going to Socialise.

I hope and pray everything for you goes well and for me too. Whenever there is a rush of anxiousness, just imagine all the positive side of not being stuck within the 4 walls. I hope you have a beautiful year ahed.